I am officially 21 years old on Feb 15 2013
Many things have happen in a year
My life there are UP and Down
I believe that is for the same as everyone else.
There is so many times I felt miserable from what happen
I am struggling through and finding a way out
All this that happen make me grow and be stronger
I found something precious to me
That no matter how hard it takes, I will not give up
Its the first time that I'm willing to work for something
That precious thing to me,makes me the happiest person.
It's the best thing that have happen to me
I was always wondering if something I was looking for exist
Where can I find it?
It is still there?
How long it takes?
How will I know?
Asking so many question to myself
but
when it happens all the question are answer.
I have found my answers
There is just many test that I have to go through
I will pass it
I know that's what I want
It's another new month. The past few months was like a dream to me. I finally woke up from that dream. It is a dream that I do not wish to wake up. Now I have to face the reality. I have to work hard for myself to reach the goal. I don't know how much time it's going to take but no matter what that's my goal to reach.
Waking up from that dream can be hard thing. Tears falling down everyday finally stop a few weeks ago but I am trying to put myself to sleep. I know soon I will be able to do it. Took another step that is going back to church. Every step i took will help me reach my goal and I'll be strong.
I never care for someone that much but it doesn't mean I will do anything that I dislike to reach the goal. It just all this that happen make me wake up and find a goal in my life. I do want to be someone that have a dream.
One day I'll make you fall in love with a new me but it's still be me..lol
I am not going to rush, I will follow my own speed and set a time. I do believe for what is yours would be yours.
Beach Day
June 20
Mr Yan finish his exam for English part 1
It's a sunny day
A nice day to go to the beach
It's really fun and Im really happy
HAPPY 6TH MONTH
6 month can be short and long
I am really happy
It will never be just a memory
It would be something I treasure
Now I have to work hard to reach the goal.
520
I felt happy being with him
This day, he make grill cheese.
We talk about all kind of possibility.
What kind of life we would have when we live together.
Actually, everyday with him feels like a special day.
I would never let go of his hand no matter what.
There can be alot of guys that are better than him
but
all I see is HIM
Only he can walk into my heart and let me be myself =]
命运就是喜欢耍人
可是我不相信命运了，我相信我自己。
现在我过的很开心因为我终于不是无情的人类
我学习说话不可以那么刻薄要顾虑到别人的感受
我学习真的从心里笑出来
那样才是真的快乐，可是这一切却要结束了
需要等到我有能力才能回到这快乐的天空
感觉需要很长的时间，难过的时候时间总是过的特别慢
第一次活的自由和开心，这生活一点也不累因为我是我自己
我不需要伪装什么因为有人真心的接受我
当我回到原来的那样的时候
我想在未来我会更幸福快乐因为我再也不会经历这样的事了
人的经历都是不一样的，
我本来想我终于可以忘掉一切开始新生活
可是我错了，还有很多难走的路
可是只要走了一半下一半一点也不会是问题了。
It's another month. Time is passing by fast. I use to wish the time pass faster but now I wish it to slow down. I want to be with him. I am so much happier with him. Today we have been together for 5 months. I try to surprise him today, it did work this time but it took awhile. I was happy when I see the smile on his face. We talk and we laugh. I want it to go on like this. I do not want to leave him but there is no other choice. I just have to believe that in the future we would be much more happier than now because what we have plan came true.
